A Letter to the CEO Who’s Still Becoming

Dear Me,

I see you.

In the early hours and the late nights. In the endless tabs open in your mind. In the moments where you’re holding your breath just to hold it together. I see you pouring everything you have into something only you can see clearly. Into Integral. Into a dream that refuses to let you go.

You are not failing.

Yes, you’re tired. You’re building a company from the ground up with nothing but grit, vision, and belief. You’re juggling two—sometimes three—jobs, all while showing up as a mother, a wife, a maker of meals, and a dreamer of big, loud, meaningful things.

And yet, you keep showing up. For your clients. For your family. For this dream that’s still in its awkward, beautiful, becoming phase.

I know you feel stuck. Like you’re suspended between worlds—between your wants and your needs, your dreams and your obligations. One foot in Integral, the other in someone else’s vision. You’re watching yourself make magic for others while worrying that your own spark is dimming.

But let me remind you: you are still becoming.

The CEO you admire started somewhere too. Maybe she had more support, maybe not. But your path isn’t hers—it’s yours. And your path is not linear. It’s layered, nuanced, real. The fact that you still believe—after all the exhaustion and self-doubt—that is the proof of your power.

You’re not alone in this tug-of-war. Many won’t talk about it, but so many founders are fighting the same invisible battles—building futures with tired hands and quiet faith. But you. You are doing it with integrity. With vision. With purpose. And that matters.

Integral will grow. Not just because you want it to, but because you’re becoming the kind of leader who can carry it—who can share it, build it, and one day let it fly without breaking yourself in the process.

So give yourself grace. Rest when you can. Celebrate what is, not just what’s next. Keep dreaming, but also keep breathing.

You’re not behind. You’re not lost.

You’re just in the middle of the becoming.

With love,
Yeliza,  Integral’s Badass CEO